I don’t think that I have made it a secret about a lot of things in my life, or the circumstances in my hometown or state even. These things can take a toll on life, health, and happiness if I let them, and while it’s impossible not to feel disappointed or angry at times, I work at this and do not allow it to take my heart. I’m not a permanent victim playing a violin, I am a strong woman who wants more.
So about last week, I just had a lot going on, and I didn’t have a blog post in me, to be honest. It was just an off week, and then yesterday happened, I was sick and after work, I just slept. If I ever need to skip or need time, I will post about it on twitter or here. So, I won’t just disappear.
So, recently I was able to visit some family in another state, and family should make you feel good and loved. That isn’t always the case, sometimes you just come back home to feel relief because you left early for your own sanity. And everyone’s sanity that was on the trip. Right, after the holidays my twin came home and that is always enjoyable, and not only so she deals with her bunnies especially the mean one.
This post is a day late because I didn’t feel good today, but here it is. Happy Thanksgiving for those who celebrate it, I really don’t. Not only does the holiday have a racist and problematic history, how many turkeys die for this day that doesn’t need to? Too many. Not only that but I don’t visit most of my family anymore, I would rather not be around racist, sexist, bad people to be honest.
There is always that one family member who you love so much and want so much for but they don’t want or try for themselves. You’re just waiting for them to hit rock bottom so that they can be rebuild and heal into the someone you know that they really are. When your cousin has been to jail twice in the last two month, for drugs and reckless driving. It’s not even as if she has been making different choices, she is doing the same thing expecting different results. That’s just insanity.